The Ups and Downs of Depression and Working at Home

The Ups and Downs of Depression and Working at HomeBy Emily Belcher

Disclaimer: I am not a doctor. This post is in regards to a serious medical problem that requires help from a licensed health professional. If you are currently depressed, please seek help from your doctor immediately.

Working from home has it’s benefits. In fact, I realized that I would be much happier working from home as soon as I started my first job at the age of 16. Of course, there weren’t as many opportunities available to work at home as compared to today but it was something that crossed my mind many times.

It’s not that I don’t like people. In fact, I love people. But some days, anxiety and depression get the best of me and I don’t love anyone. You can’t love anyone when you don’t love yourself. Unfortunately, depression doesn’t subside when you go to work. Many anxiety attacks and unexplainable and uncontrollable crying fits have happened at many jobs that I’ve had.

One common characteristic that I share with many people who suffer with depression is that it’s hard for me to hold down a job. Working with other people has a lot of positive and negative sides. When it’s good, it’s good but when it’s bad, it’s really bad. When fellow co-workers are happy or enthusiastic, it is easy to absorb their positivity. On the other hand, when working with people who talk negatively about the job, company, or employees, it can also rub off on you and lead you down the road of depression.

Another huge problem that can surface while working from home is the inability to recognize depression. Depression can evolve slowly and leave you on the offenses. When you’re placed in an environment with other people, you have a duty to act like a functioning member of society. You can’t go to work and lay your head on the desk like you do at the kitchen table.

Like many other people with depression, I’ve been on and off antidepressants my whole life because I have never found one that “works”, or so I thought. My lack of medication led me to one of the most severe cases of clinical depression that I’ve ever had. In fact, I had never been diagnosed as having clinical depression until last July.

My neurologist diagnosed me with clinical depression and I insisted that he was wrong. I was physically ill, not depressed. I remember exactly what I told him because I told my husband the same exact thing when I came home from that visit, “I KNOW what depression is. This is not depression. There is something wrong with me”.

So, after some convincing from my husband and my fear of destroying our marriage, I started on the antidepressant that was prescribed for me. Shortly after starting the medicine, I was shocked to find out that my neurologist was correct. I was depressed.

My mind had never felt so clear and it wasn’t until that moment that I realized that a pill wasn’t going to cure my depression because there is no cure for depression. I decided that I needed to continue taking the antidepressant and also make some major lifestyle changes.

Some natural lifestyle changes that have helped me while working from home, in addition to my antidepressant, are all surprisingly simple and they may be of help to you. I bought a planner to structure my days and bills. I also start each morning by writing in a journal, drinking a cup of herbal tea, and burning citrus oils.

Another important thing to remember is to make time for yourself. Allow yourself time to get away from work. When you work and live at the same location, you tend to feel like you’re always at work. Take a break, even if it is just going outside to breathe fresh air and clear your mind for a bit.

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Emily Belcher is the blogger behind TheUnextreme.com, where she enjoys writing about various topics from toxic mold to life as a work at home mom. She also writes for some of the top coupon and nursing websites as a freelance writer and editor. Some of her hobbies include hiking with her husband and young son in beautiful North Carolina, practicing yoga, and reading tarot cards.

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